Sunday May 8, 2011
Mother’s Day
My sweet precious Angel!!! I wish so deeply I had you here to hold in my arms!!! I should be able to hear your contagious giggle, see your beautiful smile, brush you soft hair, and feel your loving hugs!!! I know life is unfair to everyone but NOONE should ever have to watch their child suffer like you did and loose them at such a young age!!!!!!
The hurt and pain of loosing you is always tough but here recently a little more so than usual with loosing Mackenzie too, a completely different kind of loss but a loss none the less! She is 10-months old today!!! I pray baby that you look over her, she’s going to need all the extra prayers and Angels she can get!!! So pull your Angel friends together and keep an eye on her please!!
I keep thinking of our last Mothers Day together!! The pinkish/purplish fishing pole you got me!!! J Thought about taking it out today and going fishing, just you and me, but then I thought I’d have to actually take off a fish by myself if I caught anything so I quickly changed my mind!! LOL You and I can fish together in spirit! ;) I can picture you giggling so hard that I’d have to remind you to breathe if you saw me catch a fish while I squirmed trying to take it off of the hook!!! Remember when we were at GKTW and daddy went fishing and the fish jumped off his hook and was flopping all over the place and ended up flopping under your wheelchair??!!!! You laughed so hard!!! The funnier thing was you were almost asleep until you heard the fish flopping all over the place!!! My sweet baby I so badly wish we had more memories to make!!!!
I’m leaving for GKTW tomorrow morning with the church!!!! I absolutely can NOT wait to be there!!! What perfect timing!!! I can get away from here for a short time and focus on giving hope to families that need it so desperately!! I know exactly what they are going through and what they are feeling!!! I feel so close to you while I am there and already thinking about leaving there and leaving our memories there behind saddens me and I’m not even there yet! I miss you sooo much!! I am so thankful that I am able to go again, even got to go there a few weeks ago for the weekend!! I am so grateful!!!! Thank-you to my Angel friends here on Earth!!!!
Please sugar be with me over the next week, let me feel you hugs and kisses!! I need you now and ALWAYS!!! You are forever in my heart, thoughts, and prayers!!! No matter what life brings on you will NEVER be forgotten and NONONE will ever take your place!!!